The most horrible dream

Since my brother was killed and burned in his car in Baghdad by an adhesive bomb on the 10 of May 2011 only after about 3 months of our mother`s death, no day passed without thinking of him. My decision to leave Iraq and settle in Germany has estranged me from my family a great deal. In the more than 30 years of absence we only met twice for a few days.

What surprised me was the fact that I never dreamt of him and never even thought of the day of his death although I kept thinking of him almost every day. Last night the day before the 4^th anniversary of his death and after a cold started paralyzing my body I had the most horrible dream of him. I saw him alive but imprisoned in a forsaken wood stove in what looked like our house or let me say I rather communicated with him with him turned to only a head in a wood oven.

He opened the oven door but refused to show me his face. Then I saw him turn his face to a side which allowed me to see something like the side of a face half covered with grey ash and half with soot. He then closed the door and said that he cannot leave the door open because it caused him pain. Now I wished him to die than being imprison in a cold dark oven.

I told the dream to my wife but she surprised me: Do you know tomorrow is the 10^th of May the day he was burned? What a strange …? I can´t believe it. She said: Yes, there is something strange about this dream. I think it is more than a dream. I said: How can people then say there is no communication with the dead?

Jamshid

Bremen, 9 May 2015